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Thursday, February 07, 2008

Another night.
Another fight.
I'm fucking telling you people.
It NEVER ends.

Since my mom decided she wanted to marry someone after dating them for uhhh. 7 months, it's all been going downhill.
Don't get me wrong.
Me and my mother never had a decent relationship.
Ever.
and this... thing.... she's dating is 100% fucking prick.

NUMBER ONE GODDAMN THING I HATE.
WHEN SOMEONE THINKS THEY HAVE COMPLETE AUTHORITY OVER ME AND THINK THEY CAN PASS OFF AS MY FATHER.
Get it through your head.
You might UNFORTUNATELY be marrying my mother in October. But it doesn't change shit.
You don't look at me.
You don't talk to me.
You don't come near me.

I already have a dad that I love.
I don't want one that I hate.

I hate you.
Got it?
Thanks.

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Shit has most certainly smacked completely and utterly into the fan. and I am feeling at my worst.
I have been ditching school like it's my job. Why? I don't know. I lost the will to care.

There's only one thing that I can think of that I know for sure is bothering me.
and here it is.
IT'S SAD TO LOOK AT YOU AND NOT SEE MY BEST FRIEND, BUT A STRANGER.
You were the one person that I had tried my hardest to never ever let go.
But as it turns out...
You were the one to have [fallen f a r t h e s t] from me.
This is the only time I will mention a name.
Truth be told?
Not even Sara has drifted as far as you. And half the time? I can't stand her.
It just seems as if [[everything else]] in the world is a billiontimes more important than I am to you.
SHE is your life.
Because SHE is all you can ever talk [ or think ] about.

At one point, you were the only one I could see.
Now, it seems, that I wouldn't be able to find you in a [crowdedroom].

But at the end of it all.
IMISSYOU.

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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

This is not the end, this is just the beginning and don't you know
everything we want is within our reach at finger tips length
we've fought non stop to make these nights our own
and now no one can take them away.

I found this and I liked it.

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Thursday, November 23, 2006

As I do every year....

List of things I am thankful for:

1. Jiztin.
2. The rest of my friends.
3. The mall when there isn't drama.
4. My cell phone and iPod and all that shitttt.
5. Music.
6. Being able to sing well.
7. Family.
8. Internet. :D
9. Not having school today.
10. Karma.
11. Having "really soft" hair. xD
12. More stuff that I really don't feel like naming. o.O
13. Having the best friends in the whole fucking worldddd. [kinda said that earlier but I don't care. :]]

Yay thankfulness.

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Sunday, November 12, 2006

So tonight was pretty sweet.

Spent most of the time at a party getting completely trashed with a few friends and learning a few more things about a few more people.

Park, mall, park, more people, bacon cheese burgers.

Yeah, I'd say it was a good night. :D

And right now, I am spending good ol time with my best friend, Yeslkayy.

She's real dumb but we love her anyway.

And she farts before the caution. xD

If she goes to Virginia.... I will go crazy.

When you lose a best friend for a fucking year, you basically lose everything.

So this may be my last night with her for a year.

And I won't let her molest me, still. Haha.

I do apologize to everyone that my drunk self pissed off.

Like I'm sure Dev0n wasn't too happy with me, but I think we're okay now.

But running from the false cops was pretty funny.

We all ran into the woods and put our phones on silent.

Haha, we're such losers.

Katie almost lost everything she owned. Her cell, camera, fucking shoes.

But I think she eventually found them.

The 50billion glow sticks was pretty sweet as well.

I can't wait till Tim's party next Saturday.

Same place, same people, same fun.

Hopefully I can pull of some more same lies to my mom. :]

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